Round two at 3:30am... and then rounds three and four...
She wakes this morning still puking.
At 7:30 it is time for me to take Tressa to the bus stop. Amaya starts puking again and this is where my post really begins.
I start rubbing her back and I start to cry. I am crying because I can't make her feel better, but I am mostly crying because I felt like a terrible mother having to take her to the bus stop where she has to puke in the grass. Tressa see's me crying and asks,
"What's wrong mommy?"
"Nothing baby, mommy's just sad that Amaya is sick."
"It's okay. I will rub her back for you mommy."
That only made me cry more. Tressa loving on her sister. holding her hair and rubbing her back because mommy is sad. Tressa sits on the concrete and tells Amaya to sit in her lap. (I began kicking myself for not having my camera glued to my hand.)
The bus picks up Tressa and Amaya and I walk back. Rather, I walk back carrying Amaya. I tell her how happy it makes me that the kids all love each other so much and how proud I am of them for it and many other things.
WARNING: Tearjerker ahead!
Amaya replies,
"You take care of me good makes me proud of you Mommy."
I swear I cried a river! I felt so terrible taking her to the bus stop when she felt so miserable and had to puke in the grass... Until she reassured me that I am doing everything just right.
I am so proud of the children that I have. They are all so amazing in so many ways. Joseph is so smart, creative and willing to help whenever I need him and for whatever reason. Tressa is so loving and protective of and adores her siblings. Amaya is so active and ready and willing to learn and teach everyone else everything she knows.
I am so thankful for everything I have. I am ashamed of myself for asking for more when I already have everything I could ever need.
Lots of love and amazing things in your life
-Jaclyn-
